On the drive back from work to the place where I am staying, my eyes flipped between the odometer on the dashboard of the car and the air conditioning vent gushing out cold air at 23degreeC. Occasionally I raised my eyes to stare blankly outside the windshield of the car, unmindful of the various sights and sounds cruising past me at 125kmph.This evening, I was not being my usual cheerful self. I was not planning to explore tonight the new city I find myself to be in. Tonight, I did not want to venture out into finding new ways of spending the rials I have in wallet.
I am still trying to figure out the thing that had turned me off or exactly when or how it came about. In fact, this is what was on my mind when I drove back from work. I had started playing a game with me; I was trying to describe how I feel tonight as succinctly as possible, and so succinctly that I tried not to make the description last longer than a word.
I thought I felt weird, which I chose to replace with unsatisfied, which was not a very good choice either. A string of words raced through my mind just like the beautiful views on Al Qurm Heights Road in the national capital city of Muscat, raced past outside the car.
And of course, more often than not, such thoughts strike mostly when the scales of emotions are tilted on the negative side. Alas, human nature! I have not yet learnt to encounter pensiveness in jubilation. I have found myself turning a little quiter over the past few month, a little more restrained, a little less voluble. I offer different explanations ranging from New Year resolutions to growing-up for this phenomenon to people around me.
All along, I have tried to live with the personal motto of "18 'til I die", but I guess 24 is soon catching up with me. I guess I need to replace this with "age with grace" now. So far, so good. Again, I guess the one word game for emotions stems out from this very same turn of events. I am being brief and I have now found the word which describes how I feel tonight.
I feel "incomplete"!
If you read this, please leave a comment behind. Tell me how you feel in one word. I look forward to hearing from you!
I am still trying to figure out the thing that had turned me off or exactly when or how it came about. In fact, this is what was on my mind when I drove back from work. I had started playing a game with me; I was trying to describe how I feel tonight as succinctly as possible, and so succinctly that I tried not to make the description last longer than a word.
I thought I felt weird, which I chose to replace with unsatisfied, which was not a very good choice either. A string of words raced through my mind just like the beautiful views on Al Qurm Heights Road in the national capital city of Muscat, raced past outside the car.
And of course, more often than not, such thoughts strike mostly when the scales of emotions are tilted on the negative side. Alas, human nature! I have not yet learnt to encounter pensiveness in jubilation. I have found myself turning a little quiter over the past few month, a little more restrained, a little less voluble. I offer different explanations ranging from New Year resolutions to growing-up for this phenomenon to people around me.
All along, I have tried to live with the personal motto of "18 'til I die", but I guess 24 is soon catching up with me. I guess I need to replace this with "age with grace" now. So far, so good. Again, I guess the one word game for emotions stems out from this very same turn of events. I am being brief and I have now found the word which describes how I feel tonight.
I feel "incomplete"!
If you read this, please leave a comment behind. Tell me how you feel in one word. I look forward to hearing from you!
